Wow, Major Fail...

I was clearly still tired from New Year's Eve when I wrote that last post or I have just been so preoccupied with life that I dropped the ball on this blog and several other things on the list below. Anyways...I will do better at making this a priority.

I love this song and it rings oh-so true for my life right now. Isn't that funny, when your iPod "randomly" chooses the EXACT song you need to hear at the moment you need to hear it. John Legend, you speak to my heart. Especially that second verse. It is amazing how you experience pain, but once it is over you realize how strong you are and the difference between "real", hurtful, unacceptable pain and the pain of growth. And just like John says, "Don't be afraid of a little bit of pain, Pleasure is just on the other side".

Save Room
John Legend

Say that you’ll stay a little
Don't say bye bye tonight
Say you'll be mine
Just a little of bit of love Is worth a moment of your time

Knocking on your door just a little
So cold outside tonight
Let's get the fire burning
I know, I keep it burning right

If you stay, won't you stay - stay

Save room for my love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save room for my love save a little
Save a little for me
Won't you save a little
Save a little for me - ohh

This just might hurt a little
Love hurts sometimes when you do it right
Don't be afraid of a little bit of pain
Pleasure is just on the other side

Let down your guard just a little
I keep you safe in these arms of mine
Hold on to me - pretty baby
You will see I can be all you need

If you stay, won't you stay - stay

Save room for my love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save room for my love save a little
Save a little for me
Won't you save a little
Save a little for me - ohh

[pa-ya-pa-pa] - [pa-ya-pa-pa] - [pa-ya-pa-pa] - [da-da-da]

Ohhh come on

Make time to live a little
Don't let this moment slip by tonight
You never know what you are missing until you try
I keep you satisfied
If you stay, won't you stay - stay

Save room for my love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save room for my love save a little
Save a little for me
Won't you save a little
Save a little for me - ohh

Save room for love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save a little, save a little for me
Won't you save a little
Save a little for me

New Year, New You

I am not a big fan of New Year's Resolutions. I don't think people take them seriously and stick to them (honestly, I am one of them). But this year is different for me, I am in the middle of a HUGE transition in my life. Everything is different than it was before. My list isn't so much about making changes, as it is about focusing on living life with a purpose. I certainly won't be perfect, but I am really focusing on it.

• Blog at least twice a week
• Find my "creative"
• Only buy things I really want/need
• Actually decorate our apartment
• Do more yoga
• Be a better daughter, sister, and aunt (maybe by 2011, WIFE)
• Stop the unnecessary stress
• Call my friends/family more
• Love more, pray more, smile more

Really looking forward to a good year.

Busy Anyone???

I can't even remember the last time I wrote a "real" post and not just some video on YouTube that caught my eye. Since my last real effort on my blog, I have started a new job. The job search journal was a loooong one, but it is finally over. I travelled to San Francisco for the first time and got almost 2 weeks off from work paid, so we are off to a good start here.

The one thing I did learn from my down time at home was there are things more important than just my career. As a woman, I know that now is the time for me to be a bit selfish and focus on me and the things I want to accomplish, because inevitably, I will become a wife and mother and my priorities will need to be adjusted. So my career has been my main focus for the last 4 years. But there is more to life.

This doesn't mean I have to put less focus into my career, but it does mean I have to learn to balance my life. You hear people talking about a balanced life and how difficult it is and for some they spend their entire lives searching for this mysterious "balance" that no one can seem to spot. But, I feel I can find the balance I need to be able to be the best employee, girlfriend, daughter, sister, me I can be.

2010 can't be any worse than 2009, so LET'S GO!!!

5th Anniversary Video

We decided not to give each other gifts this year, but I still wanted to do something in celebration. It only took me a night to put it together. I think it is really cute. It is full of inside jokes, so don't be surprised if you don't get it.

FYI, he loved it!

The New Job

I am so happy that I found a good job. The search was absolutely the hardest thing I had ever done. I did have some freelance work and amazing volunteer opportunities. I know I was definitely not the only people having a hard time, but it still takes its toll on you. Reading about other people who were going through very similar situation certainly helped, like These Little Moments.

I would have really loved to work downtown, so I could ride the Metro to work every day, but the position was in the Maryland 'burbs. I miss the Metro. I think it is generally safe, convenient, reliable (as long as you aren't on the Red line), and a great opportunity to zone out every morning reading a trash magazine. But driving again hasn't been completely terrible either. I am going against traffic for majority of my ride and have been making amazing time. On the worst day, it hasn't taken longer than 50 minutes, I can deal with that. In other parts of the country driving for that long is completely normal, but in D.C. Metro is just easier.

There is a lot of work to be done in this position, but I am really excited about it.

Clarity

I do know that all of life's lessons are out there and the answer is present just waiting to be seen. Today, in the gym, I had a moment of clarity and I am not ignoring it.

1. Women no longer need to apologize to anyone for our bodies. They may not be ideal, but it is a work in progress. Make your new goal is health, not size.

2. The best revenge is living a happy life.

3. Stress can take you down (permanently) and it takes waaay too much energy to fight it. So save the drama for the real heavy stuff.

4. Stand for something more than yourself. A life without a mission is no life.

5. I love music. It really does take all my baggage away. It makes everything better for at least three minutes.